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I feel dizzy, I feel faint. My world has come to a tragic end. My vision is blurred but I hear the clanking of dishes. Where am I? Oh yes, you picked this outside cafe, a public place, a safe place...for you. I hear your voice far, far away. I try to focus on your lips, your saying something, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry" is what I can make out. My heart feels that it's being squeezed, slowly draining the life out of it, it's hardly beating. My lungs have forgotten how to take in air, my chest hurts, there's so much pain. You suddenly, yet gracefully get up from the table, even as you've turn my life topsy-turvy I can't help but admire the way you move. You lean in to kiss the top of my head. A last attempt of gentleness. I take in your scent, that delicious scent that could only belong to you. A mixture of citrus and honeysuckle. The tears drowning my eyes finally spill down my face just in time to see your departure. I only see the back of your head and can't help but admire your expensive haircut keeping your hair short. The silk red scarf from Christian Dior, surrounding your neck and the long navy blue pea coat, making you look tall, elegant and unbearably handsome. You exude confidence and self-assurance in your walk. My hand reaches for you but it's too late, your gone. You've called off the wedding, you've found another who has ripped you from me. I feel the pity looks of bystanders. I want to disappear. I feel like the most insignificant being in this world. I now have to call the caterer, the florist, the church, the hall. I won't be able to wear my beautiful white dress which is hanging in my mother's closet. I have to relive this terrible heartbreak over and over again as I explain your selfishness and self-centeredness. All the qualities that made me fall in love with you. So can I blame you for your egotistical behavior or myself for being such a masochist?
Involves the distinction
I came out from the cold;
Saliva can keep us warm
The viscosity of water
I have always
She's sadness and gold satin hair; it depends on the day which one people notice first. Today is a snowy Monday evening, the holidays just behind them, and it's the hair he notices.
A pretty girl, solo at the bar, usually means either damaged or prostitute - probably both.
"No. No one is sitting there,'' she offers without looking up, without him asking. And he thinks, briefly, he will always remember the first word she spoke to him was no.
He feels her sadness. It's like an imaginary friend she's had lingering beside her since childhood. But their banter is light and easy. Even over the usual bar noise, somehow he hears every word she speaks distinctly.
And when he walks her to her car she hesitates, then turns to ask, "Aren't you going to invite me back to your place?''
And he wants to. He just wants to ditch her hopeless, invisible friend first. This girl, Violet, those big round eyes of hers have shed more tears than he cares to imagine.
So he doesn't.
So he does invite her back to his place.
A brand new bachelor pad for a brand new bachelor.
A single barstool, a single leather club chair, a single lamp on a single end table for a single man.
And there she falls upon his bed, her hair spilling across the sheets, the pillow, draping over the side of the bed. And there she stays, for a month and a day. Unplanned, never discussed.
He has been accustomed to sharing his home for over twenty years, and it feels familiar to fill this empty void with a young girl, with hair like silk, and her ever present shadow of sadness.
It's day 4 and the early A.M. The first streaks of sunlight violate the privacy of the room but cause it to glow a surreal hue of amber. She, on her side, a sort of nude serpentine shape; following the valley of her neck, the swell of her breast, the dip of her waist, the rise of her hips. She studies him as he dresses for work; goes through the mundane routine of the morning.
"What you need is a dapper woven silk tie.'' He glances down at the one he's wearing. "Maybe blue and slate. Versace, of course.''
And this is how it starts; where it starts.
From supine to seated, she floats. Grasping his necktie and pulling him close to her.
"Not think, I know,'' she says, and for just a moment seems less sad. Effervescent, almost. She kisses him, and the moment passes.
Her existence is the sort of thing that gives a man reason to smile in the middle of a workday, as well as cause to dash home after. Today he detours long enough to stop at the department store. The salesgirl, maybe a year younger than Violet, helps him with his purchase and agrees with Violet.
"Sharp,'' she comments. "Very sharp indeed.''
At home, his home, he tries it on for Violet. She demonstrates her approval by removing it with ferocity and making love to him on the cold, leather, club chair for the first time. He worries about that though, and conditions the rich hide surface while she showers. Using the gentlest cloth, he kneels down and applies the liquid in small, perfect circles, until it once again, looks as if never touched.
She emerges, stepping naked from a plume of steam, wrings her hair to drip onto the plush bathmat, then lights a cigarette.
"Next,'' she says as she exhales, "we work on furnishing this place.''
He steals a drag from her cigarette and smiles. This is him agreeing with her. The touch of a woman, the touch of a younger woman with swanky, cultivated style and taste is exactly what this place, this bachelor pad, this single man, needs.
"You have such potential. We'll make you marketable to the female masses yet.''
He reaches for her; thumb against her jaw, hand fitting snuggly beneath her chin, pressing against her throat, and gently, he pushes her against the wall. His eyes searching for something in hers, but he finds nothing. So he closes his and kisses her until the moment passes.
Day 8, the bookshelves and matching coffee table arrive. The 13th day, they go to browse leisurely for clothing together. There she coaxes him into a side trip to the spa where she introduces him to the importance, and luxury, of proper skin care.
"Fixing you before you break me,'' she whispers as he pays their tab. Her words, the soft, icy lips forming those words, the petite wisps of breath behind those words, are all Violet. She smiles when he turns to her, as if to laugh it off, make it small and meaningless.
In the end, it all came down to a bus stop.
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